she said...

I'm happy for ya, was happy wit ya/

I'm happy without ya now, get the picture/

picture me as a person you didn't let develop/

now I'm in this mental hospital just tryna spit this pill up/

tryna pull this pillow offa my face and inhale whooo/

damn these words are sharp they impaled you/

you you you you better believe/

i threw out all those lines but u catch and release/

thats heavy as priest judas who is he to you/

oh you're a special class of person like remedial/

encyclopedia travelin havin a ball/

but if i can't have you than nobody should have you at all/

goddammit i fall (fall) just to get up and run it again and pretend that the end is already been stalled (stalled)/

i call, dream, (dream) sleep fitfully/

i thought it worked so well but hell i guess it wasn't fit for me/

she said I'm happy for ya, was happy witya/

I'm happy without ya now, get the picture/

picture me as someone outside the frame/

and if you can't see my face than maybe just remember my name...remember my name...

understand its understood/

wonderland shows u love and its never good/

and now I'm as mad as a hatter/

im ravin at this writing desk as if it ever could matter/

im slavin on this pirate ship feeling all bruised and battered/

but if u work like a slave ull eventually own ur masters/

royalties, the caterpillar remembers me/

the queen of my heart captivated and beheaded me/

time waits for no man the rabbit say/

times the great illusion my habits say/

i drink the potion eat the toadstool/

i grow and shrink and shrink and grow the dreams that ive sold u/

so share share beware stare and blink/

alls fair in love and war until ur too scared to think/

im in sync with instincts, I'm having visions/

i lapse into solipsism and its wack religion/

flow monastic, good soul but spastic/

good hold on the practical but i could get rid of the plastic/

I'm acid mescaline Hunter S/

the brown buffalo lightning eyes thunder chest/

running naked in the square I'm underdressed/

painkillers dissolving where the hunger rest/

and all because I'm under duress and searching for love/

but its only in my head because because

I'm happy for ya was wit ya/

I'm happy without ya now get the picture/

picture me as a slide show not a cartoon/

not every image is negative in this dark room/